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ban yi kukan ba zuciyata zata iya fasa kirjina ta fito. Kuka na fashe dashi sosai kuma da karfi, a wannan lokacin ban damu ba wai Don mutane sun san cewa ina kuka saboda Namiji yayi dumping dina. Sai da nayi kuka na mai isa ta sannan na tashi ina hardewa da layi na shiga dakina, a dakin ma wani sabon kukan na dasa. Bakin cikin dake raina was incomparable da ko wani irin halin bakin ciki dana taba shiga a rayuwata, wallahi ko a cikin mafarki ban taba zaton cewa ni Nafeesah za a samu wani namiji a duniyar nan da zai daga baki yace baya so na ba sai gashi wanda na kwashe shekara curr cikin son shi da mafarkin kasancewar shi uban yaya a gare ni ya daga baki ya fadi kalma mafi munin saurare a gare ni, Lallai Duniya mai cike da abubuwan mamaki. Sai gabannin Asubahi barci ya suraro ya sace ni ina xaune a kasa na jingina kaina da jikina da gado.






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_'Some nights I can hear you., Screaming on the phone over something that he did....., And I wonder what can I do to make you throw him out so you can let me in.....!'_
A song by *Shayne Ward* Titled *'Melt the Snow'*. I hope you will enjoy listening to it.




Juyi yake yi akan gado, barci yake ji sosai amma ko kadan barcin yaki zuwa. Gadon da yake Kai ya mishi fadi, gado ne wanda a kalla zai iya kwashe mutane biyar ba tare da wani ya takura wani ba amma kullum ta Allah shi kadai yake murzar shi, yana Juyi a kanshi, yana jin shi kamar wani mara galihu. Disappointedly ya sauka daga kan gadon, kan sofa yaje ya kwanta, yafi jin dadin kwanciya anan duk da cewa kafafun shi suna kan hannun kujerar ne saboda tsawon shi. Wani modem daya shigo dashi ya tuna ya baro shi a parlour, wasu muhimman bayanai ne a ciki ba shiri ya tashi ya fita, babu kowa a Cikin falon, wutar falon ya kashe yayi amfani da wayar hannunshi ya dauko Modem din. Kan three seats ya koma ya kwanta a parlour na daya, Family picture dinsu ya kurawa ido yana kallo. Ya gaji haka nan, Ya gaji da jiran canzawar halin Mubeenah, Ya gaji da kasancewa kamar wani marar aure alhalin yana da mata kuma yana da right din karo guda uku kwarara, yana bukatar rayuwar aure irin ta kowane normal mutane, rayuwa mai cike da soyayya da girmamawa ba irin rayuwar auren gidanshi ba, rayuwar auren da ba zaka taba ganin murmushi ko kafar matar auren ka a dakin ka ba sai idan tana bukatar either kudi ko bukatar namiji ta motsa mata, kai kuma naka bukatun ko oho! Yana ganin lokaci yayi da zai maida komi inda yake, maganar gaskiya yana bukatar mace ya kuma gaji da bin kan Mubeenah tana yankwana shi kamar wani mara galihu, Allah ya gani yayi iyaka Kokari da hakurin da zai yi. Yana nan kwance Cikin zazzafan tunani zai iya cewa ma barci ya dauke shi yaji karan bude kofar daki, a hankali ya bude idanunshi yaga Nafeesah ta fito daga dakinta, da mamaki ya bita da kallo a cikin ranshi yana tambayar ko lafiya? Yanayin tsayuwar da tayi tana tapping kafafunta a kasa nervously ga waya a kunnenta ya sashi cikin tunani me ke damun Nafeesah ne haka? A hankali idanunshi suka fara yawo a jikinta, duk da babu wadataccen haske a falon amma hakan bai hana shi hango surar jikinta cikin gajeren wando da vest din data saka, wani irin tension yaji yana building a cikin jikinshi babu shiri ya rufe idanunshi da karfi yana hadiyar yawu yana gayawa kanshi it's not right! A hankali ya sake bude idanun yana kara kare mata kallo yadda jikinta yake swaying halittun jikinta suna motsi suna kara tada mishi hankali, yana so yayi motsi yadda zata san da wanxuwar shi a cikin falon, but hell! He couldn't. God Forgive him but he's enjoying seeing her in that attire, making him go mad, making him want to just drag her and kiss her senseless may be yayi wani abun worst than kiss.....! Maganar da tayi cikin fushi da daga murya ne ya dawo dashi daga tunanin da yake yi, "Muneer you evil bastard!" yaji duniya ta tsaya mishi cak kamar an tsaida kowane wucewar minti da dakika, may be he was mistaken, ba Muneer tace ba, kila ba sunan Namiji ta kira ba, kila Muneerah tace kunnenshi yake gaya mishi Muneer. Ya sake lafewa akan kujerar da yake yana kara kasa kunne, "kasan ina son ka Muneer!! You know it all along amma what?! Aure??!...." da sauri ya saka hannu ya danne kofofin kunnenshi yana girgiza kai, no! No way!! Karya ne!!! Kwatakwata ya manta a ina yake balle yace ga abinda yake yi, wani irin rugugi yake ji yana mishi ihu a cikin kunnenshi, maganganu mafi muni da daci daya taba ji an furta a gare shi, maganganun da suka girgiza shi suka yi turning rayuwar shi up-side-down, Innalillahi Wa Inna Ilaihi Raji'un ya dinga nanatawa har yaji nutsuwa ta saukar mishi, maganganun Nafeesah sun matukar girgiza shi, the fact that tana son wata halitta, halittar ma jinsin Namiji, abu ne da bai taba zato ba, bai taba zaton cewa tana da wanda take so ba, bai kuma taba zaton cewa abun zai yi affecting dinsa sosai kamar yadda yayi yanzu ba. Yana jin lokacin data tsuguna tana kuka sosai a tsakiyar falon, he wanted to man up yaje ya rarrasheta sai dai a halin da ake ciki shima rarrashin yake bukata, yana ji kamar shima ya fashe da kukan ko ya samu yaji sauki daga azabar zafin da zuciyar shi ta dauka, har ta gama kukan ta tashi ta koma dakinta bai iya tabuka komi ba sai bin ta da kallo helplessly. Lokaci mai tsawo yana cikin wannan hali kafin yayi karfin hali ya tashi zuwa dakinshi, alwala ya dauro ya kalli Al-Qibla ya fara jera nafilah yana mai rokon Allah akan ya mallaka masa Abinda ya jima yana kwatanta nashi ne.....!.

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A hankali na bude idanuna da nake ji sun min wani irin nauyi marar misali, na kai hannu na dafe kaina da naji yana sarawa kadan wuyana ya rike shima na kai hannu ina dan taba shi, idanuna suka sauka akan agogo, karfe shida ta wuce, da sauri na tashi tare da daddabar Hafsy ta tashi, muka shiga bandaki muka yi alwala muka fito muka yi sallah, dakinta nace taje tayi wanka ta shirya nima na shiga na watsa ruwa, nayi iyaka Kokari na wajen mantawa da abinda ya faru Jiya da dare, bana son tunawa ko kadan. Na fito daga toilet din daure da tawul a kirjina, na tsaya a gaban mirror ina tsane lemar jikina, idanuna sun tasa sosai sunyi luhu-luhu, ni dama nasan za a rina irin kukan dana sha jiya, kayan kwalliyata na janyo na shiga shafe-shafen abubuwa amma duk kokarin da nayi idanuna basu da alamun dawowa normal dama-dama ma fuskata swollen din da tayi ya rage sosai, tsaki naja na janyo wet tissue na goge kwalliyar da nayi, nayi simple one ko janbaki ban sa ba, riga da zani na saka nayi simple daurin dankwali, na dauki jakata na jefa wayata a ciki ba tare dana damu akan in kunna ta ba. Shades na saka a fuskata wanda ya rufe idanuna da yawancim fuskata, na zura takalmi flat na fita. Yaran ne kadai a falon suna kari iyayen basa nan, naja kujera na zauna a gefen Hafsy yayin da duk suka bini da kallo, dan murmushi nayi kawai, suka gaida ni na amsa Hafsy ta jefe ni da tambayar "Yaya Nafee me ya samu fuskar ki kika sa glass?" sai da nayi gyaran murya saboda dusashewar da tayi kafin nace mata "idanuna suke ciwo, bana so in goga muku ciwon ido ne" ta gyada kai tace Allah ya sauwake Yaya Nafee, Kai kawai na gyada mata. Muka fara cin abincin a nutse, ni kam caccakar abincin kawai nake yi duk yadda naso da inci abincin abun ya gagara, xuciyata a cunkushe take sosai, takaici da bakin ciki ya cika min ciki har babu wajen da abinci zai shiga. Suna gamawa muka fita, hango bakar Matrix da nayi nasan cewa yau Abbu ne zai kaimu kenan, mamaki ya kamani ko me ya hana shi yin break ne?? Muka shiga cikin motar, as usual a baya na zauna. Muka gaida shi ya amsa cikin wata hargitsattsiyar murya wadda tasa na kalli fuskar shi sosai kamar wadda take so ta gaskata Abbu ne ko ba shi bane? Ban taba jin muryar Abbu a hargitse haka ba, wani hargitsattsen kallo daya watso min wanda ya kada min yayan hanji babu shiri na sadda kaina kasa, ina jin Hafsy fadi ba a tambaye ki ba tana gayawa Abbu wai ciwon ido nake yi ina tsoron kar in goga musu shi yasa nasa glass, harara nake jefa mata a kaikaice sai dai wannan shine ainihin abinda bahaushe ya kira da 'harara a duhu' saboda ba gani na take yi ba. Har muka ajiye su a school dinsu ban dago kaina daga sadda shi din da nayi ba, suna fita na tashi na koma gaba kamar yadda muke yi, Abbu ya tashi motar muka wuce su Hafsy suna dago mana hannu. A hankali yake jan motar kamar ba tafiya muke yi ba, ya juyo ya kalle ni a karo na barkatai tunda muka fara tafiyar, gudun da zuciyata yake yi ya cigaba da karuwa a duk wucewar dakika. Kamar daga sama naji ya jefo min tambayar da nake tsoron ya jefo min, "Are you ok Nafeesah???!"





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Kalmar 'Are You Ok' kalma ce da nake matukar tsoro idan ina cikin halin damuwa. I am a very emotional person, shi yasa idan ina cikin halin damuwa bana son mutane a kusa dani saboda gudun su tambaye ni lafiya? Don zan iya fashewa da kuka, ni a gare ni tambayar are you ok kamar fama min gyambo ne. Yanzu ma sai da nayi iyaka kokarin da zanyi na danne kukan da yake kokarin barke min nace "m fine Abbu, kawai bana jin dadin jikina ne" ya kalleni kawai nasan bai yarda da abinda nace ba, ban ga laifin shi ba don yadda nake a hargitsen nan babu wanda zai yarda wai gajiya ce ta maida ni haka. Ya kalleni sosai kamar wanda yake so yayi magana sai kuma kawai ya maida kallonshi ga titi, a raina naji dadin hakan nasan tambaya daya zai kara jefo min zan fashe da kuka, kuka kuma ba abinda nayi niyar in ci gaba dayi bane saboda Muneer. Har yayi parking a parking lot din dept din Microbiology, na yunkura zan bude motar ya tsayar dani ta hanyar kiran sunana, na Juya a hankali na kalleshi. Idanuwan shi fes a kaina suke, naji wani slight rawar jiki kafin in sadda kaina kasa, muryar shi a sanyaye yace "akwai abinda yake damunki Nafeesah wanda kika ki gaya min and I wouldn't force you to tell me, kawai ina so in gaya miki cewa komi na rayuwa sai da hakuri, koma menene yake damun ki kiyi hakuri ki dauke shi a ba komi. Idan ma wani abu ne kika rasa kike ganin kamar ba zaki iya hakuri da rashin ba kada ki manta Allah yana tare da Ke. Shi ya mana alkawarin canza mana abinda yake sharri ne a gare mu zuwa ga mafi alkhairin shi don haka ki roke shi game da abinda yafi alkhairi a gare ki ba kiyi holding into something wanda yake ba alkhairin ki bane kin gane?" na gyada kaina a hankali maganganun shi sun shige ni. Abinda ya kamata in tuna kenan a lokacin da naga hoton Muneer da amaryar shi jiya, abinda ya kamata inyi kenan ba wai in kira shi ba ina kara fallasa kaina da disappointing kaina, sai yanzu naga cewar hakika abinda nayi jiya ban kyauta ba, naji kunyar kaina ta kama ni har ma data Muneer din, ko da wane ido zan sake kallonshi kuma yanzu??. Nace "na gane Abbu nagode sosai, In shaa Allahu zan yi amfani da shawarar ka" yace "good" shiru ya biyo baya a cikin motar, can naji ya sake magana cikin whisper, kamar kuma wanda yake tsoron yin maganar, "anjima kuma sai gida koh?" na gyada kaina a sanyaye, barin rayuwar Abbu da iyalan shi!! Tunani ne mara dadi dake fadar min da gaba a duk lokacin da ya fado min a cikin raina don haka nake iyaka kokarina wajen ganin na kauda tunanin daga cikin raina. Na sake tsintar muryar shi yana tambayana, "da gaske zaki dinga zuwa kina mana weekend?" nace ehh, a cikin raina nasan fada kawai nake yi ba don zan dinga zuwa ba sai don kawai kada su dameni da tambaya. Kamar yasan abinda nake tunani, yace "da gaske kike ko kuma kina fada ne kawai?" shiru nayi wannan karon, yayi murmushi tare da kallona kawai yace na gane. Dash board ya bude ya ciro wata karamar jaka fara mai hannu ya miko min, na amsa fuskana dauke da alamun tambaya, yace "it's a small thank u gift, thank u for staying with us Nafeesah, we enjoyed having u in our life and we wish you will come back to us forever!" na dan rausayar da kaina cikin alamun rashin gane inda maganar tashi ta saka gaba, me yake nufi ne? Murmushi yayi ganin ya saka kwalwa na cikin rudani. Yayi murmushi yace "oya! Up you go! Naga abokan ki suna jiran ki tun dazu" sai lokacin idanuna suka koma ga inda muke zaune, su Ni'ima na hango tsaye a kofar shiga lab dinmu suna hirarsu da Ramlah, cikin sauri na jefa jakar daya bani cikin handbag dita na mishi godiya tare da bude murfin motar na fita. Gabadaya kallo suke bina dashi cike da alamun tambaya nasan bai wuce na mamakin abinda muka tsaya hirantawa da Abbu bane tun dazu, naja fuska tare da kara gyara zaman gilashi na a fuskana. Tun kafin in karasa wajen su suka iso gare ni, Saadiya da Ni'ima suka kamo hannuna Ramlah kuma ta dafa kafadata, cike da damuwa suke tambayana, "Nafeesah are you ok?" ni duk sai naji sun ma bani haushi, na cire gilashin idona ina kallonsu cike da takaici, "why?? Saboda crush dina zai yi aure sai kuke zaton karewar rayuwata ne yazo ko me?" gabadayan su were relieved da yadda suka ga nayi, Ramlah tace "yeah! I thought about more than that ma, nayi zaton zan ganki kamar sabuwar kamu ne wallahi sai kuma na ganki da hankalinki dai, but are you really ok?" na gyada kaina "yeah, I am Ramlah but that doesn't mean ban ji haushin abinda Muneer ya min ba" Ramlah ta rungume ni da sauri tana tapping bayana, "ohh my poor friend, Am really sorry. Don Allah kiyi hakuri, nasan in shaa Allah wanda yafi Muneer alkhairi a gare ki yana nan zuwa" na danyi murmushi, kwatankwacin abinda Abbu ya gama fada min. Na janye daga jikinta ina kallon su Ni'ima dake tsaye suna kallonmu nace "ba kuna da lectures ba wai me kuke yi anan?" Sa'adiya tace "wallahi Ramlah ce ta kira mu wai muzo mu tayata baki hakuri don tasan yau a hargitse zaki xo sai kuma muka ga akasin haka" ajiyar zuciya nayi nace "na hargitse kam Sady but Alhamdullillah na dawo cikin hayyaci na kuje kawai" suka mana sallama suka tafi mu kuma muka shiga lab. Ranar babu aikin da muka yi, sallama muka yi da staff da lab attendants na dept din don haka wajen karfe sha daya muka bar lab din cike da kewar mutanen da muka zauna dasu. Wajen su Ni'ima muka je na kara musu sallama, daga nan na wuce gida. Ita Ramlah tana Kano tukun.

Ina zuwa gida na kara hada kan kayana na zauna zaman jiran Daddy don yace shi zai zo ya dauke ni. Bayan an fito daga masallaci sai gashi har da Mommy, sai da muka yi Sallar La'asar sannan muka yi sallama da iyalan Ibrahim Galadanchi cike da kewa, kauna da zullumi. Zullumin ko zan sake ganin su a rayuwata ko kuwa? Zullumin ko zan iya da korar wadannan kananun feelings da nake ji game da Abbu? Zullumin ko zan iya yin normal rayuwa kamar da wadda nake yi a gaban Iyaye na? Magana ta gaskiya watanni shida da nayi tare da Iyalan Ibrahim Galadanchi watanni ne masu muhimmanci da tarihi a gare ni, sun koya min abubuwa da dama a rayuwata, sun kuma gaya min ainihin abinda ni, Zuciya, da gangar jikina suke so da Muradi.

Na daga idanu a hankali na kalli Hafsy dake hannun Babanta tana rusa kuka da iyakar karfinta tana ihun Ita sai ta bini, na kalli su Qaseem suma duk fuskokinsu cike suke da jimami har da kwalla a cikin idanunsu, hakika bahaushe yayi gaskiya da yace 'Sabo turken Wawa' dana kalli fuskar Abbu kuwa sai da naji kamar in balle murfin motar in fito ince na fasa komawa gidan. Damuwar dake fuskar shi was obvious, na karance ta kuru-kuru cikin idanunshi, kallona yake yi da dukka idanunshi, yanayin shi ya min kama da wani wanda yake tsoron rasa wani abu mai matukar muhimmanci a gare shi. Daddy ya bude murfin motar ya shigo ya mata key, Abbu da iyalan shi suka daga mana hannu bakinsu dauke da addu'ar Allah ya kiyaye hanyar yayin da naji kwalla ta cika min idanu, Daddy ya ja motar muka tafi. Nabi gidan da kallo idanuna cike da kwallah, Allah kenan! Kamar a ranar ne nazo gidan, na tuna sanda su Daddy zasu tafi kukan rabuwa dasu nayi, gashi yau kuma ina kukan rabuwa da iyalan Abbu. Tafi tafiya na fara bajewa daga kukan dana fara, su Daddy hirarsu suke tayi game da karamcin iyalan Abbu, ni kam kallon gefen hanya nake yi kawai. Barci ya dauke ni bani na tashi ba sai da muka isa gidanmu shima Mommy ce ta tashe ni, na fito daga motar fuskana a washe ina kallon gidanmu, Finally dai! I am back!. Muka dauki wasu kayan muka shiga dasu yayin da Maigadi ya shigo da sauran, Dakina a shirye na tarar dashi kamar ina gidan don haka ina shiga na ajiye jakar hannuna akan kujera daya dake dakin na zube akan gado ina ajiyar numfashi.





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Ana kiran sallah Mommy ta leko dakina tace in fito Daddy zai ja mu sallah, sai lokacin na tashi daga kwanciyar da nayi na shiga bayi na dauro alwala na fito, dogon hijabi na dauka na tafi dakin Daddy. Wani dan karamin dakine a cikin dakin shi wanda yake aiwatar da ibadojin shi a ciki, dakin lullube yake da darduma sai tashin kamshi yake yi, shelves shelves na littafan addini a gefe a shirye gwanin ban sha'awa. Daddy ya ja mu sallah, muna gamawa ni da Mommy muka dauko littafin Arrijalu Wan-nisa'u fil Jannah Daddy ya ja mana karatu har aka kira sallar Ishai muka yi. Muka fita zamu yi dinner amma abinci fa yace sam bai ga wajen zama a cikina ba, Mommy ta kalli yadda nake ta juya cokali a cikin Irish Supper data mana wanda yana daya daga cikin favorites dina, na tabbata saboda ni tayi shi amma na kasa ci, tace "Baby lafiyan ki lau kuwa kin kasa cin abinci?" Daddy ya dago yana kallona, cikin sauri na girgiza kai nace "m fine Mom, cikina ne a cike kawai" Daddy ya tsiyayo Pineapple and coconut juice da Mommyn ta hada ya miko min, na amsa tare da kaiwa bakina na kur6a, aikuwa har da lumshe idanuna saboda gardi da sanyin daya ratsa ni, da taimakon lemun na dan samu na kara tura abincin haka nan kafin na musu sai da safe na tafi dakina. Ina shiga na fara kokarin kimtsa kayana cikin wardrobe duk a kokarina na kauda tunanikan dake dankare a cikin raina. Na janyo handbag dita ina kokarin rataye ta a bags rack naji nauyi a ciki, cike da mamaki na zura hannuna ciki na fito da karamar jakar da Abbu ya bani da safe, a hankali na zauna a gefen gado tare da janyo dan karamin purple akwatin dake ciki, cike da mamaki na fiddo shi ina jujjuya shi a hannuna. Ina budewa na zaro idanu sakamakon wata siririyar sarka dana gani a ciki da dankunnenta har da zobe, sarka doesn't look that out of ordinary but daga ganinta kasan ba karamar sarka bace. Hannuna rawa ya shiga yi na rasa abinda zanyi, tashi nayi da dan akwatin a hannuna na fita falo, su Daddy suna zaune suna kallo duk suka bini da kallo, na zauna a gefen Daddy tare da mika mishi akwatin nace Abbu ne ya bani dazu, da mamaki Daddy ya karbi akwatin yana jijjiga shi a hannunshi yace "Shi Ibrahim din ne ya baki wannan sarkar?" na gyada kai a hankali, ni kaina na kasa yarda da hakan gani nake kamar a mafarki, Daddy yace "amma me yasa?" na jijjiga kai "nima ban Sani ba Dad kawai bani yayi" Mommy ta karbi sarkar itama ta dudduba, ta kalli Daddy tace "da alamun sarkar Babba ce fa Habibiy, Anya zamu karba kuwa?" Daddy yace "abinda nake tunani kenan exactly..." yace min "ki je daki ki kwanta, da safe zan tuntube Ibrahim din inji" nace "toh" na musu sai da safe na wuce dakina. Ina kwanciya barci ya kwashe ni, after all it has been one exhausting and stressful day.
Washegari Daddy ya dawo min da sarkar da Abbu ya bani, ban tambayi abinda ya cewa Abbu ba ni dai yana bani na bude na zura zoben a cikin yatsa na. A ranar sai ga Anty Ameenah ta kira ni, korafi ta min akan na tafi ba tare dana musu sallama ba, hakuri nayi ta bata akan cewa Lokaci ne ban samu ba, bata hakura ba sai dana dauki alkawarin cewa zan je gidanta musamman sannan. Bayan mun gama wayar shiru nayi ina kallon wayar a raina ina tuhumar kaina akan ba mutane false hope na ganina da ziyartar su bayan nasan cewa ba haka bane a cikin